Backstage 1 This is the first time that you're seeing this rug and this stuff here, and you're drawn to this stuff, get it? You're really drawn to it, and with certain feelings, because after what happened to you you see your family in its entirety, you see your loved ones…it's not like looking at a photo: you see this thing, it grieves you, it makes you frustrated…which makes you change and do this wonderful thing…you'll see…